Note: I haven't posted here in awhile do to some life circumstances involving my crappy ex landlord that arose, I have since moved and this is what occured in my new home :P Enjoy)
Having children can be both a blessing and a curse, this last few weeks, I think more of a curse..not because they are horrible, but the worry of what was going to happen to them drove me out of my mind. WHat if I have to give up custody..was never far from the forefront.
With a very big push from a friend on Myspace. We secured a place to live and that fear was completely absolved when I walked into my home and thought..we can still be a family. Thank the stars. I don't know if any of you have ever been faced with losing your children, but I will tell you know it is one of the scariest things I have ever thought about.
Things are returning to normal now ..Better then normal in fact. I have a new found energy and I can now keep up with the house work and all the things a good parent and wife should be doing, as well as finding well deserved time for myself.
Last night I put the kiddos( ages 7 and 5) in the bath, they are old enough now where I don't have to sit with them in the bathroom, so I walked into my room to get some PJ's and undies for them.. They were giggling and laughing and then the bathroom became silent, I quickly went to the door but stopped short when I heard this.
"Matthew are you my best friend?" there was a bit of swishing from the water "Matthew?" "what?" Matthew said with a little bit of impatience "I said, are you my best friend" At this point I peaked into the bathroom and watched as Matthew leaned over and looked Jeron in the eye...He replied. "No Jeron I am not JUST your best friend....We are brothers..and that's much more better then JUST being best friends"
I covered my mouth to stifle a giggle as their conversation continued...
"well" Jeron asked "how do you know that?" "Because Daddy says so and everything Daddy says is right." Jeron splashed a bit of water looked hard and long at it and then said. "Matthew I think your right...Daddy doesn't lie...We are brothers"
"Matthew?" silence "Matthew?" "What Jeron?" "Matthew I love you."
Maybe I am over sensitive these days but those words really pulled at the heart strings. And really it made this entire ordeal that we have been going through worth every moment. And it made me realize just how precious those guys really are.